I’m going to let steph describe her second visit to Houston, in October 2007.
Thank you, steph, for visiting, for trusting me, and for writing this marvelous description of your punishment.
I value your honesty, how you’ve shared your misgivings and your regrets along with your joy.
Words don’t do any of this justice, neither the pain nor the pleasure. It is like trying to describe a color that I have never seen before.
When I not only think about how much you punished me, but re-live it from the recordings you made, I am surprised at the number of truly painful, intense ~episodes~ you gave me. Whether or not you would call them punishments, per se, there was some pretty intense pain going on around my bottom this weekend.
You know though Doc, you have paddled me hard. I don’t know how hard because I don’t have a lot to compare it to. You have punished me hard, again not a ton of reference points, except I do know pain and you have caused me real pain. I can now say divine, gratifying pain. Stuff that has had a real impact on me in more than just a sexual way. Pain that has opened me to another dimension of life.
Even though this is true, I know there is more. I know that another segment of punishment would take me to another level of understanding and another level of gratification. I honestly hope that we have another chance sometime and I hope you are able to take me to that other place I really want to go with you. It is like a horizon I can see and I keep walking and as I walk toward, it gets further away.
Doc, the Melissa paddle is just plain wicked. Every time you have used it on me, you have held back, I can tell. You confirmed that when you said this weekend, “one of these days I am going to spank you ~hard~” …. what? I was suspicious that you could cause a great deal more pain than you did and grateful that I had not yet felt that for two reasons…
One, I am not sure I could handle it, plain and simple. Two, is there more, can I handle it? My mind plays with that question…. I am still not prepared to call myself a masochist though. I am unsure that I fit in that slot.
I find you to be a remarkable human being and a gentle, intelligent man whom I enjoy to the bone.
Thank you for such a wonderful time Doc, I really really enjoyed myself with you.
Links to the pages –
3. Fire to the back of my eyes – paddling
4. Oh God – the tawse – extreme