The email that started it had no text and no signature – just a subject line:
Is your website current?
I answered –
Yes, more or less.
What in particular are you wondering about?
A shy reader
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Wow. I have been interested in this subject my whole adult life, yet I have never made contact with anyone before. I have been reading your site (archives, etc.) for about 6 weeks now. For some reason, tonight I was brave enough to email you. I didn’t expect a response so soon.
I like your website.
Thanks for the follow-up note. In terms of the web site, if you’ve been reading it for six weeks, you know that yesterday I reorganized the major headings. Please let me know if the new organization work OK, if it makes sense, and if you have any suggestions. I have lots of readers—thousands, actually—but 99% are too shy to drop me a line.
So, tell me more about you. Have you had any real spanking experiences, and if so what were they like? What are you hoping to have in future? What are your feelings about this interest that we share?
My jaw is tight …
Monday, July 07, 2008
Good Evening Doc Tsai:
With each stroke on the keyboard, I cringe a little as I am one of those “shy” readers who still can’t believe she has initiated this contact. But the kind words on your site and your welcoming spirit somehow give me courage to make the move. Even now as I type, my jaw is tight and my breath is shallow. It’s amazing how uncomfortable I have suddenly become! I have so much to say and do not know how or where to start. Interestingly I have been thinking of you all day. Let me explain…
Ever since I sent you that initial email a few days ago, it has really bothered me that I was so casual in my introduction to you. Now of course all that I have read about you, or that you have written indicates that you are not bothered by this sort of thing, but to me, I just have better manners. So, I was in head all day yesterday and today, wording and re-wording how I would re-email you and what I wanted to say, and how I wanted to say it and what attracted me to you and your site, your spankings and to your thoughts on spankings and why I think you might be what I need to introduce me to this new side of myself that I have known all my life.
Yesterday I checked my email and hoped you may have replied but didn’t expect much as I felt like I had failed in my first communications with you. So here I was today, doing yard work all day, just enjoying the outdoors, and thinking about Doc Tsai. Re-thinking about stories I read on your site, or pictures I saw on Flicker or ??? By the way, I should tell you I was doing my gardening in my bathing suit, bent over a lot! HA! Maybe that’s why I had you on my mind all day. Anyway when I came in tonight, I went to empty the junk mail account and to my surprise I found your email response! It made my day.
It also felt good to write this email tonight.
The spam filter strikes again
I’m glad to hear from you again. In terms of the tone and content of e-mails, “formality” is really not the first quality I’m looking for. I’m more interested in “honest” and “thoughtful” than “formal,” so you are doing fine.
In terms of your spam filter, this is very interesting . . . I think you must have gotten my first e-mail, the response to your question, “is your website current?” because you answered that, saying you didn’t expect a response so quickly. Then my second e-mail got trapped. I wouldn’t have thought your spam filter would let the first one through and block the second, but that’s apparently the sequence. If you can figure out what happened and why, please let me know; I hear from a lot of people who never acknowledge my response and it’s finally dawned on me that must be why!
I am honored to help so many people understand and respond to their spanking desires, seeing more honestly what spanking means to them and setting aside all of that toxic shame and guilt. And I’m delighted to be part of your process of self-discovery.
Thanks for writing!
Monday, July 07, 2008
I’m not sure why the second e-mail was delivered to the spam account. That happens sometimes, which is why I was somewhat glancing through them as I deleted them.
For more –
If you’re curious about our conversations before Fleur visited me in Houston, go to Emails.
To move directly to the birthday spankings I gave her, go to Birthday Visit.