Cat to Doc, late Sunday evening
Well I am back in Georgia.
The trip home was uneventful. I took two zonal before the flight, so that helped. I typed the narrative at the airport and on the plane. I haven’t looked back at it to proof it or anything, so I am going to just send it as is. I am really spent. I am going to get ready for bed in the next little bit. I am not sure if I am more physically or emotionally exhausted. I just know I don’t have much left in me at this point.
Doc, thank you for an amazing trip. You went far and beyond the call of duty. Today surpassed anything I could have imagined. And if I could have imagined it ahead of time I might not have come…lol
one spent and dragging cat
… and the notes the follow …
Thanks so much for this note, Cat.
Before I began punishing you, I said I was worried about you, worried about how your punishment would affect you, about what would happen.
This is a very good outcome, for you to be exhausted . . spent, as you say .. . but home, safe and sound, with amazing memories.
I am okay…I will be….it took more out of me than I would have thought. Not that I had anything to base that on. I think that when we do this again, I need to maybe wait a day before travel.
I kinda can’t tell if I am coming or going at this point.
…in terms of your experience . . .
You had the thrashing of a lifetime, and that will take the stuffing out of anyone
In a sense that is a good thing. You wanted a cathartic experience, you wanted to be shocked out of your comfort zone
But your reaction is completely normal.
A good night’s rest will be a big step toward recovery. Tomorrow you will be shaky and a little disoriented, but you will cope. Tomorrow night you’ll be tired, but no longer totally exhausted. And over the next few days you’ll get back to normal.
It’s a big deal, it’s normal for you to feel this way, and you will do fine.
I’m proud of you, you did very well.
But I am glad you are not here to give me one of your amazing hugs right now…that would be my undoing. I am not accustomed to having my emotions this close to the surface and I find it very unsettling.
I am doing my best to hold back these damn tears till I make it bed and can bury my head in the pillows and let it out.
You came to Houston, among other reasons, to get those emotions out. That means your trip was a success.
Cry all you want. It will cleanse you.
You will sleep well, and be on your road to recovery in the morning.
The day after
More Than Okay
Monday evening, from a much improved Cat:
I have been dying all day to get home and check out your email. lol
Let me say first, that I am ok…more than okay.
Physically, it’s not bad. It is at that yummy pain stage now, where I feel it when I move & it makes my pussy clench. Yep…I am ready for the av…lol!!! If you had come near me with it yesterday Doc, I would have run away….but…she’s back folks! lol
As I wrote my friend, Doc had every intention of taking me as far as he could yesterday, and regardless of what implements were used, he is a man who follows through with his intentions. And yes…it was agony. It was hell. In the moment I hated every second of it. I would have promised anything for it to stop. But with every fiber in my being, I am grateful for every blow he graced upon my tortured ass. It is not somewhere I want to go any time ‘too’ soon and definitely not every time I play…but yes…I do want to go there again.
Doc, Thank you for checking up on me today. It gave me a very big smile to get your text. I am sorry it took so long to respond & I wish I could have conveyed just how ‘okay’ I was. The truth is, I am more than okay. I am really really good. It’s kinda like waiting for the medicine to kick in….lol…but when it does, watch out! I was also thinking on my drive home tonight about something you said & how it made me feel. You told me that you had played with only one other person harder than you had with me. I felt pride in that. Is that vanity? lol I really do though. I feel proud of what I held up to…proud that I made you proud. I really accomplished something this weekend. And know what…I would bend over in a second for those swats you mentioned! lol yep Ready to go again….maybe not quite like yesterday…lol
This is wonderful; thank you so much.
We knew this punishment was risky. I said that in just about those words yesterday, saying I was worried about you, and I know that you were worried, too, Cat.
It was on the edge, too, for you to go back to Atlanta so soon. At about noon I was thrashing you, and by 1:15 we were in the car on the way to the airport. That is a lot faster than I like to have that transition be. On the other hand, that’s all the time we had, and we got it done and you are happy that we did. So that is very good.
Thanks for all your positive comments, Cat. I knew you were going to be OK and now you are. That’s a very good feeling. And you have a huge achievement behind you, something you can be justifiably proud of.
About a week later, Cat was still feeling great:
Would it make sense to say that I almost feel more powerful now in dealing with things since my trip? I always said that a good punishment helps to clear the cobwebs…but it is almost as if that mega punishment helped to center me in some way. I am not sure if that even makes sense…but there it is.
I wish I could bottle this…