Notes and transcript by JC
We were looking forward to a second spanking on Saturday night. Doc was busy with work and family commitments through the day, but we all kept in touch via email. Doc had made Cat masturbate Saturday morning, then left her at Palm House, and he had forbidden her to masturbate again until he arrived that evening. The tension became beautiful as the evening spanking drew nearer.
Doc had promised Cat a long, hard over-the-knee spanking, with her in the strait jacket and unable to resist.
Doc later told us that Friday’s spanking obviously hadn’t hurt enough, so he was going to punish Cat more intensely on Saturday. He wanted to make sure she got the punishment she craved.
Did he succeed? Keep clicking and you’ll find out!
Below are notes by Cat and Doc, along with a transcript.
To download this file, go to Cat v2 2–Saturday, Are You OK?
So here I am thinking of last night and what is to come tonight.
Last night was very intense. I am listening to the sound files and getting so aroused thinking of the pain you put me through. When I start to think of tonight, I start to squirm. My poor bottom is good and sore from last night and I know you are going to torture me tonight. And tonight we are going to use the strait jacket. I am wet just thinking of it.
You know how much I love being bound for punishment & the thought of being totally immobile, over your knee with my ass in the air….and you spanking me to the point of desperation…unable to even wiggle out of the way. My stomach is in knots and my heart is living in my throat. I want this…god help me I need it, but I am dreading it just as hard.
I have no doubt you are going to bring me to a new place tonight. I am sure I am going to be begging you to stop and meaning every desperate plea. The thought that even when you get me to that point you are going to keep spanking me till you are good & ready to stop, makes my heart skip a beat.
You and I have talked about safewords.
When we play, I have the option of using my safewords. Red & yellow.
The funny thing is, while we are playing, it never even occurs to me to use them. You bring me to the point of desperation and yet the thought of using a safeword never enters my head.
I have never had a problem using a safeword when I play. If I need to use it, I do.
Why then, when you punish me and bring me past the point I have gotten to with anyone else, do I not safeword? Maybe it’s the mind set? Maybe it’s knowing what it is you are going to do to me before hand. Plus the thought that I didn’t fly all the way from Atlanta to wuss out and not get everything I came here to get.
I toy with the idea of playing with no safewords, but I am not sure that would make that much of a difference….hmmm…maybe on my next trip?
I arrived at the Palm House. Cat was sitting on the couch, waiting. We hugged and I told her I was glad to see her. We chatted for a few minutes. This is good at the beginning, because it gives her a chance to calm down and to re-connect with me, in person, before we move on to the spanking. After she feels comfortable, it’s still good because it gives her anticipation a chance to build to the painful point. Ah yes.
She gave me a present: a heavy, black paddle with “To my favorite Doc, 12/08” on one side, and stylized acrylic swirls that reminded me of Jackson Pollock on the other. I thought the chances were good that I’d be able to find a use for the paddle at some point during the weekend.
Cat had one piece of troubling news: she had been stressed by her flight—there was turbulence—and she bought a pack at the airport and had smoked five cigarettes.
Then we went back to the bedroom. I invited her over my knee. I gave her a warmup spanking, leisurely, not hard at all, just enough to sting, with some nice ass-rubbing in between. My intention was to make this part enjoyable for her. After all, she was going to suffer later in the evening. I had a couple of paddles near at hand but they were purely for visual effect, I had no intention of using them. As the spanking continued I lifted her skirt, pulled down her panties, and eventually took off the rest of her clothes so she was nude.
After a good long while of this, I moved us to the bed; I was sitting, she was over my lap. Here I continued the warmup, still just using my hand, watching her pretty bottom turn darker shades of pink. I knew this wasn’t really hurting, in fact was feeling good, a fact I confirmed with the young lady.
It was time to turn to the main event—her paddling. I wanted to protect and preserve Cat’s skin, and told her to put on her black latex panties.
I put the wedge on the bed and secured its corners to the bed’s feet. Then I put Cat over the wedge and secured her wrists to the wedge and her ankles to the bed’s feet. Her ass was turned up nicely, her legs somewhat spread, and I was salivating.
I used the sorority paddle. Or maybe it’s a fraternity paddle, it has Greek letters and says “to Carol from Bill,” so I don’t know what it is. What I do know is, it’s large, it’s heavy, and it hurts.
It was an interesting paddling for me. Some of the time I knew I was hurting her. Some of the time I was guessing she had paddle numbness—that point at which your butt has been whacked hard enough that it experiences less pain, and then none at all. This is not the same as being in subspace; your ass just adjusts, on its own, to the whacking. I checked on her butt from time to time and when it started to get significantly marked, I pulled down her panties so I could finish her up on the bare. I suspected I hadn’t gotten her to the point of desperation that we both needed, but wasn’t sure. Only she would know.
After her spanking, we want back to the living room. I told Cat to give me her pack of cigarettes. She did. I put it in a glass in the sink and filled it with water. Any doctor who is reading this knows how often we would love to do this with a patient, but it is just out of reach for the everyday clinical encounter. It felt good to be able to do this at last.
Cat’s note – afterward
Oh my god I was so nervous by the time you got here. I was listening to my ipod with my back to the door, so you startled me when you came in. You had a particularly wicked gleam in your eye and said ‘I am feeling predatory’, walking towards me. Instinctively I started to back away, laughing nervously. ‘How do you feel?’ you asked. ‘Like fleeing.’ Was my reply, and you laughed. ‘It is a little too late for that.’ you pointed out. And I knew you were right.
Things moved quickly to the bedroom, center stage. You were kind and gave me things to do. That was greatly appreciated, just so you know. Before I knew it, you were pulling out the strait jacket. Seeing it up close and personal for the first time was an experience. My pussy did its usual clenching, and my heart skipped a beat. You put it on me slowly. Each hard click of a buckle closing sent shivers down my spine. When you wrapped my arms around my chest and fastened the sleeves behind me, I suddenly thought of a cocoon. As nervous as I was, I had an odd sense of comfort in that jacket. (As a side note…the cocoon analogy makes me smile. I always feel like I come out of a session with you changed in some way.)
It was time. You were on the bed & I was to be over your lap. Now that part was funny. I think you called it the “bondage flop.” Whatever it is called, the whole process lacks in dignity that is for sure! And I had to do it…what?…three times? (I was so very glad you were not videotaping our session this time!) Lol All of the ‘flopping’ got me sweaty right off the bat.
Finally the stalling was over. It was time. I was still nervous, still scared, but at the same time I had a sense of calmness wash over me. A ‘rightness’ to the moment. When you said you were going to use the paddle I brought you, it surprised me. (Another side note…In all honesty, the whole time I was making and painting that paddle, I never once thought of you using it on me. I did think about its thickness and that it would pack a wallop, but it didn’t occur to me that you would use it on me. Lol Is that denial, or just absent-mindedness?)
I didn’t know if you were going to give me a warm up or not this time. I had a feeling you probably wouldn’t, but I had just a little hope of maybe. No warm up. You went straight for the pain with that thick paddle. It sort of caught me off guard how very much it hurt so quickly. And hurt it did! Wow. That damn paddle was stingy and thuddy at the same time. I was ready for it stop almost the very moment you began. It really hurt. I kept thinking that you were going to stop at any second and use something else…at that point I thought anything else would be better. But you kept using it, and as it turned out I was wrong anyway.
That little paddle with the holes in it is vicious. Seconds after you started with it, I was wishing for the Cat paddle again. Funny how the grass is always greener, huh? Lol In listening to the audio this morning, it brings back just how much that paddle hurt. You really had me howling with that thing. And then to give me a choice between the Melissa paddle and the Cat paddle….My brain just froze at that. I couldn’t even think as to which would be worse. I just knew they both would hurt…bad…and I didn’t want either of them. True to form, you were ‘kind’ enough not to make me choose…lol…you used both. Sigh
When that black Cat paddle started on my ass again, it hurt even worse than before. The audio almost makes it sound like you aren’t hitting me hard with that paddle. But what it lacks in the bark department, it makes up for with its bite. That thing hurts!
And then…the dreaded Melissa paddle. I thought I had remembered how much that thing hurt…there was no way I could have. Did it really hurt that bad the last time? I don’t think it could have. It was brutal. And you said ‘harder & faster’. And I thought ‘there is no way’. Oh god how that thing hurts. I don’t have words to describe the pure torture you wreaked on my ass with that paddle. It went on for days I think, and it lasted only seconds.
When you finished up with the Patty paddle, I think you could have used a feather instead & it would have hurt just as much. My poor ass was toast. That paddle wrapped things up nicely. Lol Though at the time I might not have thought so. It didn’t hurt as much as the Melissa paddle, but it was still very painful.
When you said you were done, what hit me was relief as well as surprise. And true to form, 60 seconds later I was ready for more….lol. It is odd to me how hyped up I get after a good beating…it makes me feel like going for a run, or going dancing…or having crazy wild animalistic sex. 😉
This trip has been as cathartic as I hoped it would be. I really needed this time away…and as usual, that amount of pain helps me clear my head & chase the cobwebs away.
Transcript by JC
Dec 20th, Cat.
Doc: Let’s get this strait jacket on you. Just like this.
Cheerily rigging her up
Little chuckles from Cat
Doc: This makes sure that you have a real experience
Cat: Oh ya
Doc: I like that nice solid snap sound.
Cat: It’s just like a finalizing.
Doc: It really is. Now that’s not to say that you couldn’t change your mind. Who knows what we’d do if you said you wanted to changed your mind. That’s a whole different question.
Doc: You’re looking suddenly apprehensive.
Cat: You think?
Doc: Ya. Are you having an attack of rationality?
Cat: If I were wise, I would be.
Doc: Yes, if you were wise, you would be.
Doc: OK, ( patting lap) come on over (voice is so cheerful)
Cat (laughing): If I get across, I might not get back up…
Doc: You have to flop. It’s called the bondage flop. Have you never heard of that? To get over somebody’s lap when you’re tied up like this, that’s the name for it. ‘Cause there’s no dignified way of doing it. You just flop. That’s how it is. Now, I’m gonna readjust these (the latex panties), so I can whack you just the way I want to.
I hope you’re scared. How scared are you?
Cat: Pretty scared (small voice)
Doc: That’s not as scared as you should be. You should be… I hope you realize that.
Cat: I’m very scared.
Doc: Ya, it starts with a ‘t’
Doc: That’s the right way to feel. (approvingly) That’s my girl. I like to know that you’re paying attention
Doc: The pain is gonna be right in through here (running his hand over her lower bum cheeks)
Doc: Now, I… think I’m gonna just slide my leg over like this…
Cat laughs and gasps
Doc: So I can put my leg over your knees, just so that you’re not in danger of moving too much. And that should feel more secure, does it?
Cat: It does.
Doc: Is that a good feeling?
Cat: Yes and no. (laughs nervously)
Doc: Yes and no? You’re so negative tonight, what’s the “no” part?
Cat: I said yes too (small, apologetic voice)
Doc: You did, and I gave you credit for that. You’re entitled to a no, but what’s the no about? What’s the “no” about?
Cat: Because now I can’t, like, wiggle away.
Doc: Oh, it’s true. It’s really hard to imagine how you could be more immobilized. My leg underneath pushing up … my other leg over your knees to keep them from kicking, keeping you from moving, your arms in a strait jacket, and right here, in front of my nose, is your lovely ass. Your lovely ass, which is in a world of trouble I would say, wouldn’t you?
Cat: Big time
Doc: Ya. So, of course, I’m going to use the lovely paddle you gave me. Because it’s such a nice paddle
Cat: It’s ornamental! (laughing)
Doc: Ornamental? So, it’s not to be used for actual spanking?
Well, its ah… are you thinking it wouldn’t work?
Cat: Oh no, I’m sure it’ll work.
Doc: Alright. So, with a lovely gift like this, thank you very much, by the way.
Cat: You’re welcome (reluctant sounding)
Doc: It is nice to have something new to punish you with. Now, are you comfortable? Do you need a pillow under your chest or anything else?
Cat: No, I’ve got my boobs.
Doc: (sounding a little surprised by her answer) Oh, great. You got in built in pillows.
Cat: Yup (laughing)
Doc: That’s awesome. And back here you’ve got pillows… (running his hand over her bum), that I’ve got to whack …
Cat: Cushions everywhere.
Doc: When I check your bottom out with the paddle, does that make you scared or excited?
Doc: You’ve gotten past the excitement and now you’re into the anxiety?
Cat: Um hmm
Doc: That’s very smart. Ok, now this is the ceremonial paddle…
Doc: That’s not so bad.
Doc: There you go. Now we’re started. It feels good to be starting, doesn’t it?
First smacks. Gasps.
Doc: It’s heavy, isn’t it?
Cat: Very heavy.
Doc: Oh yes, you need a good spanking. You want to be careful about that (referring to her trying to kick her legs, probably). Are you being careful?
Cat: Careful. (sounding distressed already)
Doc: Good girl
Smacking, slow and measured.
Cat is already crying out in considerable pain.
Doc: It hurts, doesn’t it?
Cat: Yes (yelled) owwww
Doc: Ummm, [hard to understand]
Cat: Oh, ow. No. Ahhh
Cat: Ahhh, owwww
Doc: Ummm! This paddle is heavy.
Cat: Oh god it’s very heavy. It hurts bad
Doc: (pleased sounding) Um hmmm.
Cat: I never should have brought it to you. (sniffling)
Doc: Oh no, I think it’s very nice. Very nice.
Cat: Ow, owww
Doc: I know it’s hard to hold still (sounding sympathetic)
Cat: Ah, ow, owwww, oh god
Doc: You need a nice long spanking, don’t you think?
Cat: Oh god…
Slow, steady smacks
Oh stop, and lots of Oh gods, and crying out from Cat
Doc: A little faster, shall we?
Cat: Ahhh, ow, ow, owwww – steady cries
Doc, stop, oh please, please, please, please, please, oh god it hurts
Doc; Tell me how’re you doing?
Cat: Stop. Doc, it hurts
Doc: That hurts? How much does that hurt?
Cat: Oh that hurts a lot. It hurts really bad.
Doc: I thought you came here to be hurt. Is that true?
Doc: Ok, then you should be enjoying this.
Cat: Oh god oh god! (cries are muffled but intense. )
Doc: I can’t understand you. Get your head out of the quilt, please, so I can hear you. You know that communication is the most important thing.
Cat obeys, and Doc is talking cheerily while she cries and gasps.
Doc: Communication between the spanker and the spankee, which is the top and the bottom. It all depends on communication
Cat: Oh god!
Doc: A little harder.
Cat: Owww, ow, Oh god, Doc
Doc: Tell me, Cat. Tell me where you are. (facilitating clear communication)
Cat: Oh, god, it hurts.
Doc: Um hmm. It’s supposed to hurt.
Cat: Oh god, at least give me a break.
Doc: How much does it hurt?
Cat: It hurts really bad.
Doc: Ok, I’m going to give you a break now, and check out what’s happening with your pretty ass. (Doc pulls down the latex panties and inspects her butt).
Good news, it’s in good shape. It’s basically begging for more paddling. Let’s try something different . . . maybe the oval wood paddle with little holes.
Break is only a few seconds, instantly starts up again with new paddle.
Doc: That’s lighter and stingier I think. There we go.
Cat’s cries go higher pitched, pain sounds intense.
Doc: Kind of fast. This is the part where you have to be punished.
Cat: Constant crying and gasping
Doc: You’re doing great. I’m proud of you. Good girl.
Cat: crying and gasping
Doc: A little faster.
Cat: Oh no, no, no
Lots of hard, fast smacking, Cat’s cries can’t keep up… frantic and out of breath.
Unbelievable number of smacks!
Cat: hahh hahhh ahhh!
Doc: Your ass is nice and hot, even through the latex panties.
Oh yes, it looks nice and red. Looks nice and red. Excellent.
Starts spanking again immediately.
Cat: Ohhhh, ow moaning
Doc: Even that hurts a lot, doesn’t it, and I’m not spanking you very hard. If I spanked you harder, I’ll bet it would hurt a lot more. What do you think?
Doc: Ok, let’s try some more hard spanking, shall we?
Cat: No, god…
Doc: Do you like this paddle?
Cat: No. (strongly)
Doc: No? Alright, I totally respect your feelings in making a decision like this.
We’ll switch over to the Melissa.
Cat: Oh god, no. No, the other one was great. It was perfect, I swear to god. (Cat is laughing through her cries)
Doc: Ok, We’ll save the other one. We’ll go back to the paddle with the holes again.
Laughs quickly turns to constant cries and protests from Cat.
Doc: You are squirming.
Cat: Oh god, stop…
Doc: I like the way you’re squirming. When I whack your lower cheeks you’re really squirming like crazy.
Cat: Oh god, oh Doc, Doc…
Doc: Yes, Cat, What?
Cat: It hurts.
Doc: I know it hurts. You’re doing great. Your spanking is part way over.
Cat: Oh god. Ow, oww, owwww
Fast and many, many smacks.
Cat is sounding like she can barely cry, or catch her breath.
Doc: A little harder now.
Cat: Oh nooo, nooo. Oh Doc
Yelling and crying out desperately
Doc: You wanted it to hurt.
Cat: Not that much
Doc: Hmmm. It’s going to hurt a lot more, actually, technically speaking…
Brief break while he checks state of her bottom.
Doc: I’m afraid you haven’t given out yet, so I have to paddle you some more. Ya, it’s true. Let’s see, would you like to have the black paddle you brought me or the Melissa?
Cat: Oh god. Why do you make me make a decision like that?
Doc: We can do both. First we’ll do the black one, then the Melissa. Hold still.
Cat: We have the firing squad or the noose. (yelling on the word ‘noose’ as the first whack hits her) Oh god!
Doc: Here we go. The black one really slams into your butt, doesn’t it?
Cat: Yes, it does. (moaning)
Doc: It’s so heavy, for a small paddle.
Cat is yelling with every hard smack
Doc, sounding delighted: Oh yes. I can see how much this is punishing you.
Doc talking all through, sounding joyful, can’t make out all words through Cat’s cries.
Doc: Excellent. Oh yes. This is excellent
Cat: Loud protests, owws
Doc: Excellent. Hold still now. Very good
Lots of smacking
Doc: That’s hard work. Let’s try the Melissa paddle. Um hmm. The famous paddle. (This is a reference to Cat’s March 2007 punishment.)
Cat: Ah, uhgg. Oh god, oh god
Doc: I’m going to give you a long hard paddling with the Melissa paddle. Do you want that? Do you want that?
Cat: Don’t make me say it.
Cat: Please don’t make me say it.
Doc: Tell me you want it. Tell me you want me to paddle you with the Melissa paddle. You do want it, don’t you?
Cat: Yes (quite clear)
Doc: Ok. That’s my good girl. I like that. Just because you’ve been such a good girl, I’ll give you a brief hand spanking, just for a change of pace and a little fun.
Doc: Yes, that’s fun. It’s always fun hand spanking your bare bottom. The latex panties go back up again. Now, we’ll move on to the Melissa.
Doc: Are you feeling ok. Do you need some more fan?
Is your position comfortable?
Doc: Very good. Ok
Cat: Are you ok? (checking in on Doc, she is actually making a joke!)
Doc: Yes, thank you, thank you so much
Doc: Let’s see if I can whack in with that nice upward motion that kind of pulls your butt cheeks up and sort of tugs on your inner parts. That’s the best way, I think.
These smacks sound very hard.
Cat: Oh, oh, moaning over and over.
Doc: A little faster
Cries and moans more desperate
Doc: How’re ya doin’?
Cat: Owwwww, ohhh, owwww
Doc: Don’t forget to tell me.
Smacks sound hard and keep going and going.
Cat: Ow, ow, Doc, oh please Doc
Doc: Please what? Please what?
Cat: Oh god, it hurts.
Doc: I know it does. I’m whacking you hard.
Smacks get faster, harder.
Cat: Begging, protesting, crying
Please stop, please, that hurts too much, it hurts too much
Doc: You need a spanking.
Smacks continue hard and fast.
Doc: Oh yes, that’s excellent. That’s excellent. (Doc sounds winded, Cat is gasping for breath) Oh yes. That’s a hard workout, isn’t it? It’s like you just run the hundred yards. I’m going to take a break on my arm too, cause this Melissa’s hard work.
Cat: I’ll bet
Doc: So’s that black paddle too. This light one’s easier…
Cat is laughing through her cries as he starts again immediately
Doc: You can still feel it. Right underneath the cheeks, right where you sit down.
Cat: Owww, Oh, it stings.
Doc: Um hmm. It’s good, isn’t it?
Cat: Oh, it’s fire.
Cat: It’s fire.
Doc: It’s fire? Oh good… that’s one of the four elements.
Cat: Moaning and crying, becoming increasingly more frantic.
Doc: A little faster.
So many smacks!
Doc: Excellent. Excellent. How’re ya doin’? Doin’ ok? Having fun? Oh yes, you are having fun, aren’t you? I’m just a service top, just giving you what you want.
Doc: Oh yes. I do love these latex panties.
Cat recovers very fast, laughing
Cat: Generous sadist that you are, huh? (laughing)
Doc: Yes, just needing to make this a good experience for you.
Cat: So kind and benevolent (laughing)
Doc: Now I think what we’ll do, is we’ll go ahead and finish things up. I’m sliding your panties down, revealing your bare bottom…
And I think I’ll do something specialwith this. That’s the Patty paddle. The Patty paddle, it seems like no matter what else I’ve been using on the girls, when I pull out the Patty paddle, their hearts sink. There’s a good reason because it’s so dense, it concentrates the power in a narrow band that makes it hurt more. (sounds delighted)
I like that, of course. You won’t like that, but I like it.
So, a little more paddling, huh?
Doc: How’re you feeling? Hmmm? Excited?
Cat: Moaning (could be yes but hard to be sure)
Doc: Is that a yes or a no.
Doc: Neither excited nor not excited. That’s very confusing
I’m excited because I’m about to hurt you. I’m about to hurt your bare bottom with this Patty paddle.
You can feel the weight of it when I whack you, even when I tap you with it, can’t you?
Cat is gasping within a few smacks,
smacks quickly start sounding harder.
Doc: It does hurt, doesn’t it?
Cat: Ahhhh, owww
Doc: You’re doing so well. I’m proud of you
Cat: Ahhhh, ahh ha
Doc: A couple on your thighs…
Cat had been fairly quiet, but now instantly frantic: Oh god, please not that, no please, not that, please not that, please… (frantic)
Doc: Does that hurt a lot?
Cat crying loudly
Doc: How much?
Cat: 30 on a scale of 1 to 10, 40, 50….
Doc: Let’s see if we can rev it up a little. A little harder and a little faster.
Lots of fast smacking… again, Cat’s cries can’t keep up
Doc: Now harder.
Cat: Doc, oh god, oh Doc… owwww
Doc: Excellent. You are toasted to a fine rosy glow
And you made it, I’m so proud of you. You did great. Just great.
Let’s get this from underneath you.
Cat sounds back in control and laughing, only slightly out of breath
Undoing ropes… for a big hug
Doc: Such a brave girl.
Cat is laughing, a nice satisfied laughing.
Doc: You went through the whole paddling. That’s my good girl.
Doc: Here, give me a squeeze. That’s my good girl.
Cat: Your good girl wants a cigarette.
Doc: Maybe I should spank my good girl some more. Of course, my good girl wants more spanking. I know that. How long has it been since I stopped whacking your butt? (Cat laughs and emits what sounds suspiciously like a smoker’s cough). It’s been about sixty seconds, and you want more already, don’t you? You do want more, don’t you?
Cat: I didn’t say that
Doc: Ya, but you can’t deny it, can you? That’s something that’s just part of the story…Whenever I stop, it’s ‘thank god’, then 60 seconds later, it’s ‘I want some more’.
Doc: You’ll have to wait till tomorrow, pretty girl. Your ass has all that I want to give it… well, all that it can take. Actually, not all I want to give it, that would take a very long time, but all it can take. I have to leave you some skin for tomorrow’s punishment.
Cat: What’s tomorrow?
Doc: I haven’t decided yet. Something… painful
Cat: I kind of figured that
Doc: How did you figure that?
Cat: Lucky guess
Cat: Psychic powers
Doc: Amazing. Amazing.
Contented sighs from both
Doc: Very nice