My Journey, I Guess?
To tell the truth, I’m not sure I was ever on a journey. I never doubted who I was, I only had acceptance. I was affected as a young child when I would see something on television emulating a spanking. Who didn’t love the “I love Lucy” segments where Ricky would take Lucy over his knee and thrash her well? Then we all knew that John Wayne spanked a co-star or two. And Barbara Stanwyck received her fair share of spankings from her hunky co-stars. Even Elvis doled out a few himself.
Whether you are a spanko or not, we were all surrounded by these visions. Some, like myself, felt that tug in their gut. Others nothing.
One thing I want everyone to know, I am not a submissive, and will correct anyone who wants to use that term with me. I am a bottom, though. A strong, independent, woman that considers herself a bottom, not a top, not a switch. Spankings are purely sexual to me. My favorite kind of foreplay. Hopefully his too.
I was in my 30’s before my first adult spanking took place. That day I found out what subspace was. I also found out how horny I would get, sitting on a sore bottom the next day. It totally drove me crazy. Unfortunately, he left that morning for a vacation with his kids. So, I just had to tolerate it until he came back. But he was a vanilla when it came to spanking. He didn’t understand how sexual it was for me, he thought he was hurting me. Life continued and it was spanking that really broke us up.
To continue my career I quit my job, left the area and started contracting all over the country. Met some very nice people, met some not so nice. But didn’t meet any spankos. Some could hide it so well that I would have never guess if they were. But after relocating a dozen or so times, I decided that I was done with that, bought a house and have been here ever since.
Finally having the nerve to research spanking on the internet I bumped into Doc Tsai and his web site. I read and re-read finding familiarity with my own thoughts, he just put it so much better. I didn’t realize there was so much to learn. Reading through his site gave me the direction and knowledge for me to have a safe and meaningful spanking life.
So, here I am today, hopefully wiser, hopefully smarter regarding this kink we share. You’ve heard that when something doesn’t feel right, it’s because it isn’t right, at least for you. Tsai’s site and the hundreds of emails we’ve shared does feel right, for me.
Thank-you, Tsai, for all the help and encouragement you’ve shared with us all.